Staring At The Cathode Ray Tube
The current routine I am in is quite unfulfilling. I’m sitting here in the apartment by myself after working all day. Naturally with a deck of cards and a glass of water, listening to loscil. How can I right now be connected to so many people in the world and still feel like I’m merely writing in my journal. I get bored with forums and don’t care to find a decent chatroom. Am I bored because I’m not doing anything or am I not doing anything because I’m bored. It is a state of mind that I have the willpower to change. If I stop telling myself that I am bored then I won’t be. How can I be bored when so many amazing things are happening right this moment.
I contemplated e-mailing an ex-girlfriend and explaining how I view the still unresolved break-up we had something like 5 years ago. Then I decided not to.
I do feel like drawing. I mostly feel like leaving the apartment but knowing I have to work at 7am tomorrow makes me lethargic.
Who am I typing this for? If I’m typing and posting these words on the internet I suppose they should be interesting enough for someone to read. I don’t feel that’s entirely true. I’m not really concerned with it either.
My feet are cold and I should eat something.
