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I received a Sega Master System for my fifth birthday. I spent countless hours playing it. I had a whole bookshelf full of games that I would cycle through and take breaks for dinner or The Wonder Years when I was a little older. Nostalgia is such an awkward feeling.

I just played all the games that I used to play and each one gave me that feeling like seeing an old lover. It’s amazing that I feel so connected to these games. So many hours spent playing them over and over and over. Dying and starting from the beginning. Finally beating the game was so triumphant but melancholy altogether. I am so happy to be alive.

peach colored visions of children on a school bus
walking through orchards, collecting every moment
sitting incorrectly in a comfortable position, i have no recollection of dismembered grief
in fuzzy shadows or cages of grass
dreaming in chlorophyl and eating mistakes or running into walls
how many gunshots have i heard in my life?
found sitting in printer:

eddie loves mom

this machine is scary it makes a bullet sound i misssed school today because i have a cavity

My daughter has been watching TV all morning and I have been sleeping/moping around. I’m not proud of that. Today begins a very long three days of work. Once I’m in it, it’s really not that bad. Right now is the worst part really, waiting for it to happen. I’m slipping into my old frame of mind and trying hard to stop. I’ve really just have to do something. I haven’t contributed anything to the network in a while.

I have a lot of ideas and don’t know how to implement them. So they just sit in my head and fester and pull me down, making me think they wont happen.

Blah blah blah. Wa wa wa.